I have been talking for decades already. There’re so many videos – you can watch them, and even if you think you don’t have any answers from inside, from the inner Master, you can get answers from my lectures. And nowadays, it’s very convenient to see any Master. In the old times, it took a long, long, long, long time. If you wanted to see a Master in India, you’d probably have to walk and swim and go on horseback for years.
Is somebody working outside? My dog-person is barking so loud. They’re working? Do something. Ah, never mind. Well, you can’t stop them anyway – just check out why they’re working. Maybe the wire, right? The electric wire or something. Anyway. You can hear my dog-person.
The office has a fence but sometimes they even jump the fence to come in. These dog-people, they’re so small but they’re very, very active. They are puppies. The one who’s barking right now, you can hear her voice, she is not a big dog. She’s the smallest one. But she has the biggest voice, and is the most noisy one. She’s very protective of her little house. She has a little house by herself, because the others don’t like her personality too much.
She was already three years old when I adopted her. But because of her size I thought she was only the same age as the other puppies. And later the doctor found out that she is three years old. I told that story already, so I don’t want to say it again. Anyway, she’s very protective of her territory. She’s the smallest, and she’s still very scared of humans. She only trusts me and one or two attendants, that’s it. Everyone else she doesn’t go near, she doesn’t let them go near.
And we already adopted her, like, eight months ago more or less, so she’s still not used to humans. So, every time, if she goes out in some place with no fence, then she would run away and hide somewhere; we could never find her. Many times. So now I have to put her in a small dog-person’s house. Small, but big enough for her. It’s like I would be sitting in a normal-size living room. So, it’s big for her, and I put in a warm, very warm, round bed for her and a lot of blankets and food and drink. And she likes it better there, so she doesn’t have to quarrel with other youngsters. She loves them, it’s just that her personality doesn’t agree with them. Anyway, the dog-people, sorry if she bothers you. I’m going to call the attendant to do something.
Did you tell them to stop working? No. (I didn’t see anybody working. Because one brother here holds the microphone for them to hear out there.) But I hear the noise. (No, nothing.) From here, just now. Not now. (I couldn’t find them.) You cannot? (No.) You don’t hear? When you were here, did you hear that? (I did hear it.) OK, but you didn’t find any. (I didn’t find any.) OK. Forget it, don’t worry about it. It’s just sometimes disturbing.
I hope you meditate well here and everything is to your satisfaction. Of course, there’s no place like home. You feel more comfortable at home and you find everything you need at home. I understand that. I try to make you as comfortable as possible here. There’s still somebody here, I just heard the noise. How come you don’t see anything. You don’t have a flashlight? OK. Oh, my God. Disturbing. I forgot what I was saying.
Because recently I also moved from Hsihu. Before, I moved around the world and never felt anything. I have only one small bag, the size of the monks’ bag. They have a simple cloth bag they hang on their shoulders. That’s all I had in the Himalayas. I mean, that’s afterwards… before that I didn’t have any. I had a sleeping bag and I put my things together in the sleeping bag, which is not much. One plate, one cup and a spoon. And later I had to discard it because it was very heavy. It kept getting more heavy as I went higher in the Himalayas.
That was before, when I was luckier. I had nobody. No husband, no family, no friends, no disciples, no Masters, nothing. I was just roaming around the Himalayas. That was the freest time as far as I can remember. And now moving house, it seems like asking for world peace or something. For my dog-people, they have to have cars and dog food, dog toys, dog blankets, dog huts, dog cases. Then a specially-made den for them… and dog, dog, dog, dog stuff.
And, of course, coming with dog-(people) are dog-people caretakers. And they in turn make a lot of trouble for me. Not that you can see. These things are invisible. Because if they work for me, I have to take care of many other things. They bring souvenirs – invisible typhoons or storms, sometimes. Nothing is a “free lunch” in this world, that’s what they say. Well, I experience that.
And sometimes because of them, I’m tired and sick, and then other disciples would not understand why I always say, “I’m tired and sick.” This is the problem, because nobody sees anything. So, either they blame me or just shake their head or just thinking something not good about me. That’s the problem. The more people you have around you, the more you become different. No, maybe not you, you don’t feel much, it’s just if you are a Master, you will. You will have to change somehow, and you have to do things that you don’t want to. A lot of things.
So, be happy that you are not a Master, and don’t envy any so-called Master. They don’t have a party every day, even though it looks like that. It’s just for the sake of others, you play along. Just like when you are grown up already, you don’t need toys anymore. You don’t need to play children’s games anymore, but you play with the children. And you, “Ooh-ooh, ah-ah,” when you lose, when you win, as if you are one of the children and really excited about it. Or sometimes, maybe you’re lost in the moment and you become a child again, and you play with them and maybe enjoy it a little bit, but it’s not your real purpose.
Anyway, I hope you meditate well here. Do you? You meditate well? I guess it’s a “yes.” Silence means “agree,” so since I can’t hear anything, it’s a good thing. OK. I just want to say hallo and I love you, and I’ll probably see you another time. I don’t think anything’s urgent. You want to see me, right? Do you have any urgent thing you want to see me about? No, right? OK, good. I hear nothing, so that means nothing. Anyway, I hope you understand my situation and forgive me if I don’t see you every hour of the day, because that’s what you want, 24/7. I know that.
But I don’t understand it, because this afternoon, I was taking a meal before my medicine, and I invited one of your sisters to eat with me. She’s the one who takes care of my home and brings food to me, so I invite her sometimes to eat together. And I told her, “I don’t know why you guys want to see me so much. I mean, once a while OK, but I’m not a movie star or anything. I’m not really all that good looking, I’m getting old already.” She said, “No, Master, You’re not old.” I said, “Oh, come on. Give me a break. I saw it in the mirror. And I’ll show it to you here, look: wrinkle here, wrinkle there, everywhere.”
She said, “We don’t see you as old. We just love You so much, and we never have enough of seeing You.” She herself admitted that. I said I was thinking to talk to her, to ease the problem a little bit. And she’s also the problem. She said, “We love to see You all the time. It’s never enough.” I said, “I don’t understand it really, because I myself have never really wanted to see a person or anyone or anything that much. But I accept that what you tell is the truth.”
And I wish I had more than 24 hours a day, and I wish that my body were made of metal. But I heard that even metals, they need a rest sometimes. I read some research; they say some metals show signs of tiredness and fatigue, like something damaged or something. But let them rest for a while, and then they recover themselves. I can’t believe that! I thought, no wonder my body doesn’t always want to work.
Maybe I’m made of metal, but need rest sometimes. Like, I need rest all the time, not just sometimes. I need rest all the time. Nevertheless, I love you very much. I can never see you enough, of course. But we have to share my time. I haven’t seen my dog-people today. Of course, I’ve seen them flitting by, running in the garden, but I haven’t really spent any quality time with them today.
So, one of the dog-people, he stays in my house, in my dining room, and he’s fed up with me. Today he really wants to go out. Normally, he wants to see me. Today he doesn’t see me – he’s fed up. He’s scratching the door… he wanted to go out to see the other dog-people. So, I let him out. And then he doesn’t see me anymore – he’s scratching the door from the other room. He wanted to see me. I said, “Too bad. You left. I don’t want anymore, and I’m tired.” So, that’s the thing. Even dog-people like to see people, a lot. I don’t remember loving to see somebody as crazily as you guys. So, forgive me if I don’t really understand it.
I see you sometimes, of course, and then answer your questions and stuff, and just to say hallo, but otherwise, I have been talking for decades already. There’re so many videos – you can watch them, and even if you think you don’t have any answers from inside, from the inner Master, you can get answers from my lectures. And nowadays, it’s very convenient to see any Master. In the old times, it took a long, long, long, long time. If you wanted to see a Master in India, you’d probably have to walk and swim and go on horseback for years.
So, be happy. We see each other sometimes. Better than nothing. And when you long to see the Master inside, due to the absence, then you also get the connection. And you’re more concentrated on that, so it’s also a benefit in some way.
I wish you a good meditation time and a good night. And take good care of yourself, because it’s not sunny anymore today. And it probably will be cloudy tomorrow and the day after. But the temperature is warm enough. I heard that it’s about 24 degrees Celsius. So, you’re OK. Good night, and I love you. God bless you. I hear you clapping a little bit. Is that true? I love you so much. Thank you. Thank you for your love. Thank you, and good night.
