Yes, what is it, Sri Lanka? (Master, talking about loving and kindness, something I realized at this retreat is something marvelous has changed among the disciples, among the brothers and sisters.) Yeah. (They are so very kind, they’re so very joyful inside their hearts,) Yes, yes. (and we just can feel the energy. Yesterday, we even talked in our room about it. Things have changed. We are so happy.) Yeah, I know. This time is more light, and everybody’s more… (Very different.) feels less heavy. (Yes. Yes.) Because all Heaven Gates here are opened. Before, you didn’t have enough merit to open it. Now they’re all opened. Even if you stay at the Heaven Gates area, but if you’re not enlightened enough, they’re not open for you individually. So now, everybody seems to enjoy because so much Power from the Extreme Cosmic Area Region has come down, has been brought down here, and everybody benefits, more or less. (Yes, Master. And we just feel during the meditation, the Love is just pouring, it’s just washing us.) Yeah. (Thank You so much) You’re welcome. (for everything that You’re doing for us.)
You see? That’s the good thing. So, it doesn’t matter what happens to me, I’m always happy. I might say to you this and that, complain a little bit, but it doesn’t mean anything to my heart. I could suffer a thousand times more if everybody else is happy. In fact, I offered to do that, so the whole world can be happier. But it’s not accepted. It’s maybe for you, but they also benefit now, somehow. Instead of me suffering and dying, and then end of story, they let me live.
I almost died a few years ago, (Yes.) but I live again. Instead of dying a thousand times and suffering for nothing, and then end of the story like many of the Masters, I went up, and then brought the Power (down) instead. It’s a better way to “die,” better way to help the world and the Universe. I’m very happy that I could do that. But before that, I had to suffer, and because of that, I have to continue to suffer in a lesser degree, mentally. That’s all. But my suffering is so little compared to what you gain, and compared to what I gain, too.
So, even though I tell you these stories, it sounds terrible to you because you love me so much, you don’t want me to suffer. But it’s nothing to me. (Oh, it does hurt us to hear that.) It hurts, of course. I mean, I wouldn’t say that if you pinch me, I don’t feel pain. But, so what? So what? Even ordinary people, they also go through pain for no reason, just for their own karma, or for their loved ones, or for whatever reason like they do drugs, they drink, and they suffer. And I suffer for everybody to be happy, so, no difference. The suffering is no different from everybody. But the consequence is different, and that is worthy. For me, it’s all worthy. So, if I say to you something like that, you just forget it. You listen and you know it, but you don’t have to worry about it.
I told you, I have been operated on many times, injured and fell down the staircase, fell down from the ceiling, all kinds of things, but my blood is perfect, told you. The doctor proved it. My heart is perfect, too. My lungs are perfect. They have a little inflammation, but it’s perfect. I’m a normal person! So, why do you care about how I suffer? It’s all illusion, truthfully. Everybody else would have died a thousand times already, the way I had to go through. So, that means I’m a tough girl. Don’t mess with me. Don’t mess with me.
Every Master suffers. Even ordinary people suffer, so why, what’s the problem? I’m a very lucky girl. I had an operation, I recovered. I got sick, I recovered. I fell, I stood up. Many people don’t stand up again. Many people don’t have successful operations. Many sick people never recover. I’m very lucky. So, I have nothing to worry, so you shouldn’t worry. I tell you because I share with you everything – my life, and maybe you want to know. If you don’t want to know, just don’t know. Forget it. Like you watch a movie.
I’m also surprised, to be honest with you, that the blood test, you know... But I have a witness. She was there, and the doctor told her in French. And I pretend I don’t know, I asked her in English. I speak French in a broken way. But sometimes I forgot, so they said, “You speak French perfectly!” I said, “Yeah, sometimes. Now and then. Not many. I know some.” But they said, “Your accent is perfect.” I said, “Some.” I said, “That’s why I need her to translate.” Blah, blah. But the doctor spoke English anyway. He told me, “Nothing wrong, and you can read it through the report.” Of all the injections they gave to me, of all these anesthetics, normally they stay in your body for, like, forever. You know the drug – anesthetic. And sometimes they even gave me morphine or something to calm the pain.
And some doctor even gave me, during those times, gave me some... I said, “I don’t want any injection of that. I don’t want drugs. I’d rather have pain, or you give me some other thing instead.” Like another pain killer. Then he gave me some morphine patch or something. (Wow.) I said, “What is that? It says something like morphine.” I don’t understand much of the language. But I said, “Is that a drug?” He said, “Yeah. But you just pat it on your skin only.” I said, “I don’t even want that.” Sometimes I just bear the pain, and you just get used to it. After too much pain, you just collapse, and you sleep. And then it’s gone, for a while. Because sometimes if you take too much of one painkiller, it will immobilize you also. It will make you kind of not agile anymore. That’s why now, I still walk stiffly, because during the operation or after, they just give you the injection. They don’t even ask you. They put it in the IV, the drip, and you don’t even know what it is. You’re not even conscious to ask.
But how many things went into my blood, before, after and during the operation? If this table is full up to here, full of drugs, I mean medicines, for me, this fragile body has to take so much, like this. When I went home and emptied all the boxes on the table, I was so scared. I said, “So much I had to take into my body?” All different kinds of things. Really, the whole table was full like this. This table, and full up to here. I thought, “I’m going to take a picture.” But then I thought, “No, no. I don’t want to keep a negative souvenir.” And all kinds of X-rays. Different times, X-rays and different tests. And my blood’s still OK! Maybe OK compared to the people outside. I don’t know. There is a number, you can read how much, you’re high or low, or things like that, or what dangers. They said nothing. They tested all kinds of things. They tested whatever you told me. (The coqueluche [whooping cough].) Yeah! I don’t know, all kinds of things. I said, “Do whatever. Test whatever possible.” They took a lot of blood out, and tested all kinds of things. My blood is really perfect. (Wow.) It’s really.
And the doctor cannot explain my cough. Of course, I can. This is a common… It’s a common phenomenon with Masters. When I go to group meditation, when go to seminar, when go lecture, there will be coughing. But this is the minimum that comes out, left over from inside, from the suffering inside. So, coughing is just the outer outlet of a little thing that, like, a few drops spill over from the cup. But it’s not much. But it was just painful, so I had to go see a doctor before it got worse. I worried maybe something was wrong, because it felt like my body would fall apart every time I coughed. It was that powerful, and so painful. But of course, I have to take care of myself. No? (Yes.) And with all that, I’m surprised how come my blood is perfect? If it’s not printed in black and white, I wouldn’t believe it. Truly. You understand me? (Yes.) Ha! So, the heck with everything. So I tell you, don’t worry, OK? I am perfectly normal.
I have too much protein. Right? (A little bit.) Does it make it a bad thing? (No.) If you have too much... Any doctor around here? (I have doctorate of medical laboratory.) Oh! If it’s too much protein, then what happens? What is it? (How much higher than normal?) (Twelve. I think it was 12. The maximum is supposed to be nine or something, and it was 12.) No, seven. (Seven?) Two? It’s supposed to be two, and then I’m seven. No? No, it’s something else. I’ll go and give it to you to have a look. (Yes.) “How can You [be] just so fine?” Stay here. (Thank You.) Stay here to prove that I’m perfect.
OK, then. (Oh, here She comes.) I found something. (Oh!!) Oh!! ([Vegan] cheese!) I thought you were clapping because I came. (Yes!) Next time, I’ll just send the (vegan) cakes. (We clap even more because You brought [vegan] cheese.) You go get the scissors and... Oh, here it is. You can cut it and share it with them. I have some (vegan) bread, even. (Oh.) And I asked her to bring some water. We have very little. We can filter the water and bring it. (They can take some.) Yeah, yeah, yeah. Take the cups first. (And the bread also, Master?) The bread that I have a little bit. Oh, I have one (vegan) bread and one thing. You can share a little bit with each other, just to quench the thirst a little bit, and some more coming. OK? (Thank You, Master.) Catch! (I have some already, Master.) You share with each other. With the cup, everybody shares a little bit until we have more. Yeah, very good. These are some of the vegan cheeses that you don’t have in your country. (Wow! We like it.) (This is for You, Master.) I saw it in the fridge. No, for you. I am very small, I don’t eat that much. I just saw it in the fridge. We can even filter the water from here, (Yes. Correct.) so you don’t have to keep running. (OK.) But do we have another like that, it’s quicker, or somewhere? No? Only one. Right? (Or in the store-room.) Come here, Iran. And you cut the bread [into] small pieces. And you cut the (vegan) cheese and bread at the same time so they can have both at the same time. Otherwise, they eat the (vegan) bread or they eat just the (vegan) cheese, and it’s too salty.
Yeah, tell me. This is... you see this one, it’s protein, you see? (That one is C-reactive.) What does that mean? (It’s related to inflammation.) Oh! (It said that in the chest...) A little in the lungs. (...it can be inflammation. It’s about inflammation.) Oh, that’s it then. Not too much? (No, no.) It’s OK? (Yes.) Alright. Thank you. She doesn’t know. She thinks protein means you eat protein a lot. (No, no, C-reactive protein. It stands for inflammatory protein.) It’s OK, right? OK. Understand. Thank you. It’s OK? This is nothing. Right? Everything OK, huh? (Yes. You are... all seems OK.) There’s also some water here for the ones who did not have. Filtered, from my kitchen. Everything there OK, right? (They are.) Otherwise, they would underline it, right? Give it to them and then after they finish, you go get more water. (You pass around.) (Yes, thank you.)
(I wanted to say something.) Yeah. (I don’t think… I’m not a doctor, but it’s from my experience. I don’t think it’s maybe because you eat too much protein. It's...) No, no she told me already, it’s not protein. Because she (attendant) told me it’s like I eat too much protein. (No, no, no.) OK, then you tell me. (No.) I asked you why. (All of them looks normal. It’s normal.) Normal, this normal too. As long as it’s normal, it’s OK. (Maybe some ordinary?) No, no, it’s just the inflammation stuff. (Hemoglobin.) Too much? (Hemoglobin is...) White, white blood [cells] or something? (In the border, low border. It’s about...) High border. (You’re normal but...) But a little bit high, right? But still OK? (The normal is...) Twelve. (...12 to 17.) So, I’m at 12. (Low border.) Border low. Is it good or bad? (No, it’s good.) Low is better or high is better? In the middle is better, right? (In the middle.) OK. (At Your age...) Oh, “Your age…” Thank you very much! What age? (Fourteen.) What age? (Fourteen is OK. No, 14 is OK.) I don’t give you this! OK, thank you. Just joking. (Fourteen is OK.)
Yeah? (You are Master, You are God. Everything is OK.) What means everything, even if it’s not OK, you say, “it’s OK?” (Fortunately, You are God.) What means “You are God?” It has nothing to do with my blood stuff. (And what is this?) What means “You are God, You’re OK?” What do you mean by that? What do you want to say, really? (I want to say...) OK, I’m God, so if my blood is bad, it doesn’t matter. Is that what it is? (You can manage everything.) Oh! (You will be, every day, every time, healthy, powerful!) Thank you! Yeah, that’s what I want to hear. But don’t say anything about the age. Don’t give her any (vegan) cheese. OK, you go, you go, you go, go. Give her one piece of (vegan) cheese. Here you are. Hallo. Hallo. (Thank You so much.) Try the Westerner cheese, (Thank You.) vegan cheese. (Yes. Thank You.) (It’s very good.)
Photo Caption: When the Cloud Deity Wants to Paint a Picture of a Dog-person N a Stick.
